Hiroshima All Over Again

i never know when it will strike. this deadly demon called cancer.

he’s vicious. he’ll lead us on, making us think she’s recovered with her clever wit and bright eyes.

he strikes at unlikely times. she’ll be in the middle of a bite, or marveling over a herd of horses glimpsed from the car window. she’ll be laughing at a joke, or playing checkers with me (and winning).

suddenly she’ll begin rocking herself back and forth, and moaning, soft and low. the light will fade from her eyes and her head will droop like a rag doll.

no doubt there’s a battle raging inside; flashes of immunity’s sword, cancer’s devilish laugh, his fake retreat and then whoosh: Hiroshima all over again.

you would never know she was going through such pain. we lay her down to rest next to her stuffed panda i brought back from beijing, hoping she’ll sleep it off and wake up cancer-free. miracles still happen — don’t they?beautiful-mom.jpg

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4 Comments

  1. Teneale said,

    June 30, 2007 at 6:38 pm

    Em…I’m so sorry for the pain your Mom is going through…not to mention the pain it causes you and your family. Praying for you everyday. Can’t wait to see you at the end of August. Love you.

  2. Melanie said,

    July 2, 2007 at 1:05 am

    praying for a miracle Em. Our God is the same God who healed the blind man (John 9).

    love, Mel

  3. marge said,

    July 2, 2007 at 3:36 pm

    hi em we are praying for you all. we love you and take care of yourself. mom

  4. Auntie Darlene said,

    July 7, 2007 at 5:38 pm

    I am sitting here after reading your post and seeing the picture of your precious Mother with her gorgeous blue eyes, manicured nails, sunhat, and pretty pastel colored clothes, and my eyes are brimming over with tears. I don’t have a clue what you are going through and I try to imagine if this were my Mother .. it must be so incredibly painful to see your loved one dealing with all of this. My heart goes out to you and I lift your lives up to our God who promises never to leave us or forsake us .. to the end of the world. May His daily presence fill your hearts and minds with His peace. And may praise be on your lips, even in these times of struggles and trials. Love you! Auntie D.


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