meaningful vs. mundane

she reminds me of simple accomplishments. feats like doing a load of laundry, or cooking a batch of granola. little, seemingly insignificant things like taking a shower or watering the plants… my mum finds meaning in these, and joy upon achieving them. brain cancer has taught (forced) her to slow down and measure each step with dignity and grace. to rest when she needs to. to sing, to dance, when the mood strikes. not letting the tick-tock of the pendulum disturb her beat.

meanwhile i rush through tea with her, in the hopes of accomplishing something meaningful. in the hopes of stamping my name across the world in unforgettable strokes. i race the pendulum, trying to make up for wasted seconds spent doing laundry or taking a shower or watering the plants. or singing. duties which, in the end, comprise life as we know it. duties which, in the end, determine who we are, because of the spirit in which we’ve carried them out.

isn’t that what serving God is about? serving him amongst the mundane? trusting him to make meaningful the merest of moments? pausing to rest, knowing he will take care of my dreams, my aspirations?

the other day i heard his voice over the grumble of my own heart: “don’t be hasty with my dreams for you.” MY dreams for you. God’s dreams for ME.

and then: “once you’ve learned to be content with nothing, i will give you everything.”

NOTHING. this scares me. and yet, he’s promised EVERYTHING.

Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, the courage to change the things i can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

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2 Comments

  1. suzy said,

    September 5, 2009 at 9:09 pm

    Beautiful, Beautiful.!
    Thankyou for these words today. Salve for my soul 🙂

  2. Allie said,

    September 7, 2009 at 8:47 pm

    em, i love you!

    thanks for everything… for sharing your thoughts & hopes & questions, and for letting me do the same 🙂


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