father knows best

i just had to wake him.

at 1.5 weeks, Aiden Grey slept through the night…

(not an every-day occurrence. uncommon blessing.)

five hours into the star-speckled folds i woke in a panic, grasping the air for my baby, finding nothing…. breath snagging in throat. sitting up, hearing no cries, fearing the worst…

i stumbled into his room, saw him lying there in bassinet, baby-cheek pressed into cloth, tiny sweet-milk breaths kissing the air…

and i woke him, believing he needed to be fed.

he didn’t. he needed sleep. i tried to force him to latch. he cried. i cried. believing i knew what was best.

finally, hubby pattered into room. rescued wife and son… sent both to bed.

i fell, tear-spent, on pillow, sending heart to heaven. learning: God will wake him when it’s time to feed… i need merely to rest. letting go, fragile flesh of my flesh.

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2 Comments

  1. Teneale said,

    December 3, 2009 at 8:25 pm

    I remember there were a couple of nights where I too was worried about him. How could he sleep so long? I also quickly learned to let sleeping babies lie! Hugs.

  2. Linda said,

    December 4, 2009 at 2:12 am

    Sweet girl, I was going to say nearly the same thing Teneale has said. He really will wake when he’s hungry. Sleep:-)


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