the land of baby dreams

where do you go, child of mine, when you sleep?

your small chest rises and falls… sweet milk breaths fill the room, and i watch you slip away from me into a forgotten place: the land of baby dreams.

how do you dream, without words? do you dream in pictures? in shapes? in sounds?

or perhaps, in the Land of Nod, you are fluent, and grown-ups are the ones who’ve forgotten how to talk…

sometimes you tense up, make tiny squeals or grunts, and your legs kick. it reminds me of a puppy, chasing the proverbial rabbit… are you, too, chasing? perhaps, in this sleepy land, you can run, jump and dance… perhaps you’re playing with your unborn sibling, who passed over into the dream world last year.

i imagine an island where babies converse and crawl, walk and laugh, a land of milk and clouds and sunshine, where adults are not allowed to go… a place much like Dr. Suess describes in his books–a wacky world of this, that and the other… a place where children can be children.

but then, some nights, i think you visit God… i picture you sliding from earth into heaven, where he picks you up; reminds you to be patient as we learn to care for you… you beg him to return to paradise, but he just smiles and says, ‘they need you. your parents need you. i promise, earth will get easier.’

i think this, because sometimes you wake with a glow… and you smile at me, loving me more than any words ever will.



  1. Teneale said,

    January 11, 2010 at 3:44 pm

    What a beautiful post Em. Thanks for sharing these thoughts with us. Maybe Aiden and Logan have already met in dreamworld!

  2. joannamallory said,

    January 12, 2010 at 5:49 pm

    Beautiful thoughts, Emily, and so evocatively shared… makes me wonder what we’ve forgotten from those dream times.

    Your boy is getting big so fast!

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